Look Back on My Journey and Remember- Esther

Looking back, from the beginning to the end, is part of a life journey of faith.

My disciple group is made up of brothers and sisters of different age groups. It is not by accident that we signed up for this course together. It’s interesting to hear them sharing their unique experiences and insights. Each person would notice different things as we studied along the way so we got to listen to the different views when we met up once a week and shared. We struggled together through the daily homework. But knowing that there is someone who struggled with me gave me great comfort. We prayed for each other, that’s also a promise we made to each other in this Disciple Red group.

The human condition which we read each week is so true. When it's compared to the marks of discipleship, I realized how insignificant I am, and all the more I need God in my life and the community of faith to embark on this journey of faith together.

As time passed, when I saw the group getting smaller and smaller, I began to ask myself: "what is the point to continue when I can just turn around and leave" It is not that I didn’t expect it to happen. Still when it happened, the impact was there. There were so many reasons for me to just quit. However, our faithful God reminded me of why I decided to join in the very first place.

I was in my second semester of my second year in university early this year. Soon, I will be in my final year. I struggled with the decision of whether to join or not. I knew it’s going to be a challenge for me with the subjects getting harder and harder. I prayed about it and asked advices from my close ones. Finally, I made up my mind. I was one of the few who registered last.

In the first class where we were asked to share the reason we joined, ‘because God would be happy’, that’s my reason. And that’s the only one reason that I need to hang in there and continue the race.

In addition, I still remembered telling God that “once I begin, there’s no turning back. I am going to try my best to finish it. “ Later, signing the Disciple Covenant further convicted me to keep my promise to God in the witness of my brothers and sisters in Christ. I can’t simply walk off. A promise is a promise.

Surprisingly, my exam result turned out to be quite good, much better than what I expected. I know it’s the work of God in my life. Indeed, His grace is sufficient. Thanks be to God and may all glory be to Him, and Him alone.

Throughout the journey, He is always there to encourage me and cheer me on whenever I feel like giving up. And I know He is going to remain faithful to the very end. The closing of Disciple Red Course actually marks the beginning of many more journeys with God and I am looking forward to how He will work in my life till the day I meet Him face to face.

Last but not least, I encourage all to sign up for the course and experience for yourself the works of God in your life.

"Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him" Psalm 34:8